I remember that morning so well. We had decided to spend the night at Bianca’s Mom’s house just to give her a little more time since we figured she was the least likely of our parents to visit us in Latin America. Her cancer had made it almost impossible for her to fly on planes by that point. I myself could barely sleep that night. I woke up early to journal my thoughts. Since it felt like a momentous occasion, I thought I should record what was in my mind for posterity.
I remember the snow outside. I remember it still being dark. I remember loading up the kids and Bianca in her Mom’s Blazer and thinking “Is this really happening?”. I remember seeing almost all the family in the airport that morning. So many had come to see us off and it was such a cool blessing to leave with that feeling of support. I remember friends helping us move all those bags. I remember our boys receiving gift bags with binoculars, candy and Steelers stuff. It was such a sweet goodbye that morning.
It was also a hard goodbye that morning. Bianca’s Mom hated saying goodbye so she didn’t come to the airport that morning. That was also the last time I ever saw my Grandma alive. We knew we were walking away from a lot of people that we loved and opportunities that my kids were never going to have. We would not have easy access to a lot of the things that we had always known or depended upon. We were walking away from the comfortable and familiar and into the unknown and unpredictable, intentionally.
We were trusting that the Lord was going to meet us and I can tell you now, he has. It has been quite a journey for the last 3 years. More has happened than I can recap. Some days we have seen unforgettable surprises that God had waiting for us but not all of them have been fun. In fact, I would be lying if I had told you that we enjoyed every experience we’ve had. Many days have been very, very hard but we have learned again and again that our enjoyment is not the point! God is actually developing our faith and he puts that way ahead of our comforts and feelings! And I have a sense that we are not unique and he works that way with all his followers.
I want to testify today specifically, to the fact that if you step out and trust the Lord and take whatever step of obedience that he is calling you to take, regardless of your fears or what you think it might cost, you will be the one who gains. The one who obeys the Lord always gains in the end no matter what your senses, your friends or enemies tell you! Christ followers obey the Lord because it’s how we show Him that we absolutely love Him (John 14:15) but in the end you will see many times over how much He loves you too!
“Truly I tell you,” Jesus said to them, “no one who has left home or wife or brothers or sisters or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God 30 will fail to receive many times as much in this age, and in the age to come eternal life.” – (Luke 18:29-30)